Fill my Hands with Your Blessings

You know that overwhelming feeling when you’re home alone with the kids and they each want your undivided attention all at once? 

Well apparently my kids know how that feels too.. And so they officially pulled a prank on me tonight!

After a super hectic noisy dinner, I took the baby to my room to feed her. I locked my door and felt that moment of DEEP relaxation, as I lay down with her in utter calm and quiet...

But a minute later, the door somehow bursts open with all 4 kids, laughing and jumping all over me, yelling on the top of their lungs, making as much noise as they possibly could! 

For a moment I was about to get upset.., but then I realized that my only logical choice is to laugh along with them.. and enjoy the crazy moments of this great journey called motherhood. 👶

This past Rosh Hashana, as I read the “Avinu Malkeinu” prayer and got to the one that says, “My Father, my King, fill my hands with your blessings!” - I knew that it must be referring to the blessing of many children... (Which other blessing could it possibly be talking about?)
I closed my eyes, and with all my heart, asked Hashem to please bless me with another child this year... 
And thank Gd my prayers were answered!

So in those moments when my hands are full and the noise level is loud enough to wake the whole neighborhood..
I say “Thank you Hashem for filling my hands with your blessings!”
Always ready for more! 🙏

Update: My kids claimed it wasn’t planned at all;) it was just natural that they all had a lot to say at once, and they were excited to get into my room.




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